Day 2 - Description

 I woke up tired from reviewing all the lessons that we had. Today, we are going to have a quiz, a very hard quiz to be exact in our subjects: Reading and Writing Skills and General Biology. The quiz was tough as hell, especially on Reading and Writing Skills. The questions could only be shown for 5-10 seconds so it was very difficult. While answering, My heart was racing so fast, my hands were shaking, My little mind couldn't remember all the things that i reviewed because I couldn't focus and comprehend all the questions that were given. After the quiz, I got a low score (as expected) but I know I could do better, and I should, because of this academic validation that I was yearning all my life. It's so exhausting, getting all the pressure from the people around me, from my friends, and especially from my family. My family thinks that I am this kind of student who is naturally smart, well in reality, it turns out that I'm not. I'm just getting the high scores because I wasn't lazy, I was just getting all the rewards because I am spending most of my time studying for the future that I'm not sure about, for the future that I don't know if I could be successful, and for the future that I'm dying to achieve. Sometimes, I envy the person who is naturally smart, who is privilege to do what they want because they have all the money in the world, and the person who doesn't need to be the key for their family's success. I just want all this pressure be gone, I just want to achieve my dreams because I want to, not because I have to, but that would be selfishness, right?

After school, me and my friends went out to unwind from all of the exhaustion we've been through. We're not complete, as always. We went to this small coffee shop called "Kuzrye". It was just on the front of our school. The ambiance was nice, the food was great, and this is what i liked the most about the place; the price are very affordable. we had so much time, we talked about our plans in the future, had our little inside jokes that only us could understand. I'm so greatful to have them in my life, even if sometimes they are the most annoying person i have ever met in my entire life.

Later on, we all went home, and as usual, I went to bed. I felt so tired from all the things that happened today, but what's important is I must go with the flow of my life and think about the bright side that I am experiencing. I know that every challenges, every setbacks, every failure, and every disappointments doesn't define who I am. I will always choose to put a smile on my face because I know that the world doesn't end when I failed that one quiz.